I know I missed last week.
I wanted to have something new to show you.
I finished a thing but...it's not really that great. It was an old doodle that I wanted to complete and so I did but it is just kind of...I guess the reason I never finished it before is that it wasn't quite working for me then and that didn't change.
It was an enjoyable exercise. I watched episode after episode of Ghost Whisperer while I worked on it. There were definitely some design things I got out of it because by doing, we learn. But it still isn't that...GOOD.
Well, here:
I like some of it. But other parts are just off and the overall thing feels off balance and doesn't work, as a whole.
*shrug*
Sometimes that happens.
It's okay.
If I were really in love with this design concept, or other people were really in love with this design concept, maybe I'd try redoing it. Heck, maybe I still will some day if I'm bored and somehow have time on my hands. But for now I have brushed off my hands and walked away.
Right now I'm working on another illustration that is determined to give me fits.
I had an idea while out hiking, the way one does from time to time -- an image that I really liked thought would be a) super beautiful and b) a companion piece to another illustration of mine. But...I don't know if it is because I didn't get around to starting it for a few days while the weather was awful and I was poking around with a bit of silliness that my best friend and I came up with and the idea had lost clarity, or if it is simply one of those times when bringing an image to realization is just a struggle because of lack of skill or a mental block or the wrong approach, but for whatever reason, it is, at this point, a very frustrating project.
I'll probably open it up and work on it some in a few minutes.
By which I mean, open it, realize the face is STILL wrong, and delete and hope it is better for the third or fourth time in a row.
But I won't work on it too long.
Because I have to get up early.
Because I have a job.
That's RIGHT.
Two weeks into unemployment, I was hired by a company that seems REALLY cool. I like the environment, the people seem great, my job duties and the way I'll be working sound great, and i will be getting to do proper design and illustration.
Yeah.
I am TERRIFIED.
This is definitely a case of "Tons of people will be seeing my work and I have been a fake all this time and I just KNOW that within a week they will realize they made a huge mistake and they will kick me out unceremoniously and possibly throw things at me'.
Oh god I'm so scared. It is pretty much everything I was hoping for and I am SO worried I'm going to screw it up.
But also excited.
Also very excited.