Actually some art. How about that?

So, to balance out the last post, this time it has been a bit more than a week, but despite the risk of my pizza burning, here I type. 

Hmmm...

Okay, the pizza's been rescued. 

There are just some risks you don't want to take. Death of a family member. Car wheel falling off on the highway. Pizza burnt to inedibility. 

Life continues its regularly scheduled ups and downs (what my mom always called 'my artistic personality', but I later came to discover is more commonly known as 'clinical depression' and 'being an adult is awful'), and I recently fell victim to a very ill-advised crush (stupid troublesome loins)...but something trite like, 'the world keeps turning' or 'the show must go on', or 'the sun will come out tomorrow'...oh wait, that last one's Annie.

Work is...a very strange combination of awesome and terrifying. I'm still in that unenviable position of spending half of any given day pretty sure I don't really know what I'm doing and preparing for them to tell me that they made a huge mistake in hiring me. But then on the other hand, things happen like...well, last week my boss had me take down notes for the team meeting we are going to have this Thursday: 

...and today we sent each other Sherlock and Empire records screen caps to illustrate just how we want that meeting to go down. Basically, I love it there. Despite the continuous terror. 

In my personal art life, I have been making a concerted effort to give my art at least some of the time and attention it deserves. This doesn't always happen. Sometimes I come home and just want to veg and watch House while I browse Tumblr. Sometimes I have a friend in the hospital and don't even get home until after 8 and am still making pizza at 9:30 and updating an overdue website and have to wake up early to take my car to the mechanic.

But I've been trying.

The thing I've really been attempting to put my focus on over the last little while is regaining my sense of FUN with my art. 

I have come to the realization lately that I've gotten into this place where, for whatever reason, I need everything I make to be MEANINGFUL or EPIC or at least REALLY REALLY GOOD and while it is good and important to push yourself as an artist, it is ALSO important to enjoy it and have fun and know that half of what you turn out is going to be crap but you might get a really good idea out of it or just get a stupid idea out of your system. 

So I've been sketching a lot more. 

And I thought that this week, I'd start with sharing a few of my weird little sketches. 

(Yes I am a moleskine-owning whore. Don't judge me.)

(Or do. You know. Whatever.)

Just...random silliness. A lot of it far less than epic. ...Though I actually did the coffee and cats pictures last fall and the camping doodle was started after that and I just finished it recently because I'd just use it to pull out and idly doodle on when I wanted to occupy my hands and not have people breaking my flow. 

Anyway, the point is, it has been working. I don't think I'm going to have time to draw tonight because it is almost 10 and I haven't eaten pizza yet and I have an extra early day tomorrow and I'm really bummed about that fact. I want to stay up and draw. Which I see as a good sign.

I'm going to wrap this up gracelessly because my pizza is getting cold and my lunch today was a handful of skittles, but before I go, one more thing. I finished this and I'm actually happy with it:

If you want to see a larger version and get a little more information on it, you can do so here. 

Good night my beauties.